Some say we're never meant to grow up
I'm sure they never knew enough
I know the pressures won't go
Away
It's too late

Find out the difference somehow
It's too late to even have faith
Don't think things will ever change
You must be dreaming

Think before you make up your mind
You don't seem to realize
I can do this on my own
And if I fall I'll take it all
It's so easy after all

Believe me 'cause now's the time to try
Don't wait, the chance will pass you by
Time's up to figure it out
You can't say it's too late

Seems like everything we knew
Turned out were never even true
Don't trust, things will ever change
You must be dreaming
(Dreaming)

Think before you make up your mind
You don't seem to realize
I can do this on my own
And if I fall I'll take it all (Wake me up, wake up)
It's so easy after all

Some say we're better off without
Knowing what life is all about
I'm sure they'll never realize the way
It's too late

Somehow it's different everyday
In some ways it never fades away
Seems like it's never gonna change
I must be dreaming
(Dreaming, Dreaming)

Think before you make up your mind
You don't seem to realize
I can do this on my own
Think before you make up your mind
You don't seem to realize
I can do this on my own
And if I fall I'll take it all it's so easy after all

Believe me, it's alright
It's so easy after all
Believe me, it's alright
It's so easy after all

Happy Birthday :)

no more distractions.
no more worries.
no more excuses.



Q2 2008, lets get it on!

almost 2 yrs la...驴心狗肺的sob...life is a bitch...2008 is a fucking wrack so far

my goal this summer...

No more midterm or test this semester la, except for a few assignments here and there. The content wasn't hard but, yet again due to my lack of study habit and other circumstances, I did not achieve the result I wanted. I'm trying to refrain from using the term "failure" as much as I can, because failure is nothing but unsatisfactory result. And most results in life are determined by our own action, not God's. You fail only when you believe you've failed. Though it's much easier to put the blame on Him, and not giving Him credit for our success.


The voice of conscience is so soft, and yet so clear when you hear it. The race is not over Phil, catch up.



Juno MacGuff: I'm losing my faith in humanity.
Mac MacGuff: Think you can narrow it down for me?
Juno MacGuff: I guess I wonder sometimes if people ever stay together for good.
Mac MacGuff: You mean like couples?
Juno MacGuff: Yeah, like people in love.
Mac MacGuff: Are you having boy troubles? I gotta be honest; I don't much approve of dating in your condition, 'cause well... that's kind of messed up.
Juno MacGuff: Dad, no!
Mac MacGuff: Well, it's kind of skanky. Isn't that what you girls call it? Skanky? Skeevy?
Juno MacGuff: Please stop now.
Mac MacGuff: [persisting] Tore up from the floor up?
Juno MacGuff: Dad, it's not about that. I just need to know if it's possible for two people to stay happy together forever, or at least for a few years.
Mac MacGuff: It's not easy, that's for sure. Now, I may not have the best track record in the world, but I have been with your stepmother for 10 years now and I'm proud to say that we're very happy.
[Juno nods]
Mac MacGuff: In my opinion, the best thing you can do is find a person who loves you for exactly what you are. Good mood, bad mood, ugly, pretty, handsome, what have you, the right person will still think the sun shines out your ass. That's the kind of person that's worth sticking with.
Juno MacGuff: I sort of already have.
Mac MacGuff: Well, of course! You're old D-A-D! You know I'll always be there to love and support you no matter what kind of pickle you're in... Obviously
[nods to her belly]
Juno MacGuff: I need to go out somewhere just for a little while. I don't have any homework and I swear I'll be back by ten.
Mac MacGuff: You were talking about me right?

"There's a first time for everything."
It's only February and I've already had a few this year. Some I can't control, some stands out among others, and some I've brought upon myself...
None the less they are the very experience that makes us who we are.



Yes, they work.

Last night we went back to the same bar at Korean Town where I last got drunk. There is something so alluring about it's ambiance that makes it all the more difficult not to succumb to this poison. 3 soju, 10 bud, saba-san, spicy squid and a whole lot of appetizers were all that was needed to have a good time. Of course, it also depends on the people too. I really did have fun yesterday. Why is it so easy to talk the night away over alcohol? Some may say that you're not yourself when you drink. Perhaps. But my experience with alcohol has never been a negative one. Maybe because we feel so vulnerable when people know who we really are, so we hide behind our smiles and the usual how you doing talks. But when we drink, our conversations becomes so open and true. Even though it only lasted for a few hours, but I wouldn't trade the world for memories like these. I don't know why I always come back to her, but seems like she never fails in seducing me.

bei database owned jor...fck


so seductive is lady liquor tonight

Timmy covers his eyes to sleep...

In the words of George Bernard Shaw,

"This is the true joy in life - that being used for a purpose recognized by yourself as a mighty one. That being a force of nature, instead of a feverish, selfish little clod of ailments and grievances complaining that the world will not devote itself to making you happy. I am of the opinion that my life belongs to the to the whole community and as long as I live it is my privilege to do for it whatever I can. I want to be thoroughly used up when I die. For the harder I work the more I live. I rejoice in life for its own sake. Life is no brief candle to me. It's a sort of splendid torch which I've got to hold up for the moment and I want to make it burn as brightly as possible before handing it on to future generations."

And once again, I'm back here doing something unproductive. 2 midterms and a project next week, and none of which I've ever even touched yet. To make it worst, I played mahjong with my family till 5am yesterday to celebrate chinese new years. 我祝大家新年快樂,萬事如意,身體健康!

There seems to be a bit of dejavu when chinese new year comes around. Happy new years but yet school is about to start, making it not so happy. Then happy new years again only to be greeted with midterms and motherloads of work. But on the bright side, I guess reading week is at least something we can all look forward to (cept for old people :-)). Speaking of old, I'm finding myself eating a lot more vegetables and a meal just doesn't seem complete anymore without seeing some greens. I hope spiderman didn't lie to those little kids. I'm also finding myself just sitting there and thinking about stuff a lot, so much that I think I'm turning pro at the age of 20.


Anyhow. If I were me, I'd go study.

found this in my grandma's drawer today




epic...

I was on the subway coming home just now, and I felt a moment of inconvenient truth. The train arrived at Yonge station. I looked at the lady beside me and she looked back smiling. As the door was about to close, she rushed toward the door and shouted "oh shit!". But it was too late. The wheels had already been set in motion toward the next destination. Only to look back at her stop, fading frame by frame through the window.

And like most things in life, it always seems a bit late when you realize it.

Sorry but here's another post about anime. I've been watching a lot of anime movies lately and I cannot even find a word to describe how _____ Mind Game is. This is not your everyday bread and butter predictable anime, but something so unique that I don't think there is a genre for it. It's one of those movie that has an ethereal quality? perhaps it sends a chill down your spine kinda thing? but somehow you know you want some more?...

Not making sense here, but I really suggest watching it if you got the chance.

Just finished watching Paprika. Really good movie in my opinion. //tries to write a mini review but did not do the movie any justice. So anyway, just watch it and let me know what you think.

Heres my Christmas in a nutshell:

-post exam shell shock
-recurring dreams of checking up marks on rosi
-missing muay thai
-UFC 79 prediction: Silva > chuck, GSP > Hughes
-work
-snowboard + the usual eastside mario
-spending lots of time with grandma
-one pretty nurse lol
-"its all about giving, not receiving"
-people pmsing :)
-reading The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People

-logitech x-540 for $49.99... $91 instant savings :o
-still wanting to spark some great conversations
-drinking with andy dad and uncle, good times lol. We told dad we'd pay for tuition and my uncle would pay for 6months mortgage if he can finish 1/2 bottle of chivas, but...


This pretty much wraps up 2007, good year. Looking forward to the next one!

Studying for my human factors exam right now and stumbled upon a rare occasion where something I'm learning actually relates to me in real life.

Psychological Stressor
• Frustration:
– Upset in the pursuit of a goal
• Conflict:
– Two or more incompatible motivations or behavioural
impulses compete
• Change:
– Noticeable alterations in one’s living circumstances that
require readjustment (coping)
• Pressure:
– Expectations or demands that one behave in a certain way

Workload as a Stressor
• Workload – stress from having insufficient resources to
meet task demands


This picture is dedicated to those of us who are having exams right now...
I feel you

Landed my first superman punch today. Jab, cross, right kick. Jab, cross, right kick. Jab, cross, feint then superman punch. I think this was also the first combo that I was able to successfully execute according to plan. It felt like time went slow motion for a few seconds as it happened. I saw everything. Got the guy right in the nose. He started going berserk afterwards and went all out on my thigh though. As a result, my leg is going to be messed up tomorrow but landing that combo was all worth it.

"Great conversations are like the lifespan of a person, they begin at a time which is never convenient, often late at night or in the morning, they last for a while, and then end abruptly at a time much later leaving everyone wanting just a few hours more"


Have you ever talked to someone, doesn't have to be anyone in particular, and felt a true sense of communication? I've only had a few great conversations like these in my life, and I long for them to happen again. They make me feel so close, so intimate with the other person. They usually happened at night and can easily last for hours. Maybe because we took off the mask that we wear during the day, or perhaps we're just feeling lonely and want someone to talk to. Whatever the case, I've always felt a sense of lost when they have to come to an end. But like all good things, they generally do. I cannot describe this feeling to those that have yet to experience this phenomenon, but you'll know it when it happens and that feeling can never be forgotten.

Blast from the past!

I've been a gamer probably since I was five and the most memorable game that I played is Contra. This was back in the day with the red white NES system, and my uncle was the guy that first introduced me to the world of gaming. To those of you that don't know what Contra is, lets just say that it was one the most challenging games ever made. And being a five year old then, there was no way to beat with game without cheating. One of the best things about Contra is the co-op mode, where two players can kick some simultaneous ass.

Now the purpose of this post is to let you all know that...CONTRA IS BACK ON NDS (http://ds.rom-news.org/ has all the roms in case you don't know)!!! This is the most exciting thing that happened to my NDS since puzzle quest. Zelda was good and all, but it didn't have enough bam in it for me to become addicted. I'll leave that for another time...



Now in dual screen!



Let me know if you want some wireless co-op action :)

...God?

owned

Just finished my subway cheese steak and preparing for my 240 midterm at 12 tomorrow. I'm a freeman after tomorrow, but man does that seems so far away. Now, I don't want to get off on a rant here, but I got owned like a noob by tonights exam.

As you know, I wasn't able to concentrate yesterday and started this blog. And as a result of this, tonights exam turned out to be extremely difficult. At least to me it was. I went in and realize it was a 45minutes test and that shoke me off abit. Time started, looked at the first question, wasn't that bad. Finish it after a bit then moved on to the second question. The Z value went off the chart, so I thought I did something wrong and started to improvise my own equation. Time started going fast forward on me and the minute hand went as fast as the seconds. Times up, good game Phil. Realized my initial solution was correct, but of course this was after the test and man do I hate this feeling. This "slip" has always been a companion of mine whenever I go to a test. In closing, I really need to know myself and not doubt my answers. Feeling a bit bad at the moment, but still need to study my ass off for 240. At times like these, I wish I went to college instead...

I wish I was...

Buakaw P. Pramuk

Hello World

Hello everyone, its 2:03pm right now on a very fine day of November. I've finally decided to start blogging in hopes to improve my writing skill and to get to know myself better. Right. Seems like I arrived a little late in the game since everyone started blogging back a while ago, but after reading one particular blog, I've decided to write one myself. Now I don't want to get off on a rant here, but after 20 years, how am I still not able to concentrate on my homework?

I've been having midterms since the beginning of October, and Thursdays became my most hated day of the week. Time goes by fast these days and its already the 14th of November. The barrage of midterms will cease after this week like the calm before the storm, then finals starts on the 10th of December. So much to do but here I am blogging like a noob. What does it take to motivate myself to work? How come I can never really concentrate and study for just a few hours? I've complained about the work load before, but in reality, its not that much work if I am able to concentrate. If I can look at doing homework as a way of leveling up in a rpg game, 4.0 wouldn't be as far away.

So if anyone is actually reading this, here is my first post. I hope I have some more interesting things to talk about in the future, but until then....

CONCENTRATE.